I am so mad!
Blogger just wiped out my new post!!!
Argh! I am so mad!
Cannot write anymore!
Monday, November 19, 2007
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Smart Tunnel
Completion of the Smart tunnel brought a huge relief to me cause it means that there is no more mess on the KL Seremban road and there is an alternative road to the city, which means then lesser jams and smoother journey - WRONG!!! well, at least the second part that is.
When it was free, everyone got on to it. Then Samy dearie said it would cost us RM2 to enjoy the Smart-ness. Fine, it is still better than getting caught in the jams.
Then one morning, I paid my RM2 toll like a good girl would do and SLAM!!! I was met with a terrible jam in the bloody tunnel! Then I looked right and saw that the "old" KL Seremban highway was a breeze!!! Grrrr.....
Then, there was another morning I was going into the lane leading to the tunnel and BANMM!!! another jam even before I got to the toll!!! And there was no U-turn for me.
This evening was another mess. It'd had been rainning and traffic was crazy. The tunnel was what I was looking forward to so I can reach home faster. I turned into the road beside Times square and wondered what the jam was about ... then I saw it - Terowong Smart di tutup, something about aktiviti banjir sedang dijalankan....wtf?!?!
First, I was not aware that the bloody Smart tunnel only does one thing at a time - not very SMART right??
Secondly,why was there no sign BEFORE reaching the junction to alert drivers of this? Why wait till everyone drove into the lane and the surprise us with this?!!! We then had to drive onto some gravel lane to U-turn. Honestly, this is so ridiculous!!!
But then, Malaysia boleh-la
When it was free, everyone got on to it. Then Samy dearie said it would cost us RM2 to enjoy the Smart-ness. Fine, it is still better than getting caught in the jams.
Then one morning, I paid my RM2 toll like a good girl would do and SLAM!!! I was met with a terrible jam in the bloody tunnel! Then I looked right and saw that the "old" KL Seremban highway was a breeze!!! Grrrr.....
Then, there was another morning I was going into the lane leading to the tunnel and BANMM!!! another jam even before I got to the toll!!! And there was no U-turn for me.
This evening was another mess. It'd had been rainning and traffic was crazy. The tunnel was what I was looking forward to so I can reach home faster. I turned into the road beside Times square and wondered what the jam was about ... then I saw it - Terowong Smart di tutup, something about aktiviti banjir sedang dijalankan....wtf?!?!
First, I was not aware that the bloody Smart tunnel only does one thing at a time - not very SMART right??
Secondly,why was there no sign BEFORE reaching the junction to alert drivers of this? Why wait till everyone drove into the lane and the surprise us with this?!!! We then had to drive onto some gravel lane to U-turn. Honestly, this is so ridiculous!!!
But then, Malaysia boleh-la
Thursday, November 8, 2007
A day in Boleh-land
In the Star some days back, there was an article which caught my eye. Refer here.
It talks about the importance of early education for our kids in order to have a better educated generation. The whole talk he had was actually to address the majority of this country, talking about how a better educated generation will help steer the nation into greater achievements and how mindsets must change in order rise in the world etc. etc.
But the thing is that, early childhood education already exists in our country and unfortunately this is a privileged sector which not all can afford.
So what will happen? In the end, those who can afford will have better educated/ developed kids and those who cannot will lag behind.
Question is, why is the Boleh-land government not doing anything about this? Why is it that we do not see many (or at all??) government sponsored kindergartens/ nurseries/ play school etc? Why is it that we have kids in the rural areas not even having a proper school? Why is it that we are spending millions and millions of ringgit in sending people to outer space while the inner space is not properly addressed? Think about how these ringgit will be better utilized had it stayed in the country and help develop the education system ... heck, we may even be able to have the capability to build our very own space launcher instead of sending people over to other countries!
If you read the article, some other comments which gave me a slight increase in blood pressure are:
“It's only when we become a developed race (that) we can be confident” - wtf?? So if you are not developed, then you have no confidence?? I don't think that that is how we define confidence, ya?
"In advanced countries, two-year-olds, and sometimes even younger children, join planned education processes" - no, you i*****, we already have this in Malaysia, wake up la!
“Perhaps their learning techniques are different. They focus on fun learning but, more importantly, they believe that the process to build a person must begin early” - you don't have to be a genius to know this wei ... oops ... I forgot it's you!
He said Malays were still expecting handouts and did not pay back study loans but if they want the nation to be developed then their mindset must change. - this is because you guys started it!! Why not do away with this handouts and force all to compete fairly?? I am sure we will be getting the developed race status pretty fast!
“We may want big houses, expensive cars, imported furniture, but the most important thing is to invest in education.” - NOoooo .... really ah??
Wau! I really love Malaysia!!
It talks about the importance of early education for our kids in order to have a better educated generation. The whole talk he had was actually to address the majority of this country, talking about how a better educated generation will help steer the nation into greater achievements and how mindsets must change in order rise in the world etc. etc.
But the thing is that, early childhood education already exists in our country and unfortunately this is a privileged sector which not all can afford.
So what will happen? In the end, those who can afford will have better educated/ developed kids and those who cannot will lag behind.
Question is, why is the Boleh-land government not doing anything about this? Why is it that we do not see many (or at all??) government sponsored kindergartens/ nurseries/ play school etc? Why is it that we have kids in the rural areas not even having a proper school? Why is it that we are spending millions and millions of ringgit in sending people to outer space while the inner space is not properly addressed? Think about how these ringgit will be better utilized had it stayed in the country and help develop the education system ... heck, we may even be able to have the capability to build our very own space launcher instead of sending people over to other countries!
If you read the article, some other comments which gave me a slight increase in blood pressure are:
“It's only when we become a developed race (that) we can be confident” - wtf?? So if you are not developed, then you have no confidence?? I don't think that that is how we define confidence, ya?
"In advanced countries, two-year-olds, and sometimes even younger children, join planned education processes" - no, you i*****, we already have this in Malaysia, wake up la!
“Perhaps their learning techniques are different. They focus on fun learning but, more importantly, they believe that the process to build a person must begin early” - you don't have to be a genius to know this wei ... oops ... I forgot it's you!
He said Malays were still expecting handouts and did not pay back study loans but if they want the nation to be developed then their mindset must change. - this is because you guys started it!! Why not do away with this handouts and force all to compete fairly?? I am sure we will be getting the developed race status pretty fast!
“We may want big houses, expensive cars, imported furniture, but the most important thing is to invest in education.” - NOoooo .... really ah??
Wau! I really love Malaysia!!
Thursday, November 1, 2007
Good night Ryan
When Ryan was a baby, I used to put him to sleep while nursing. Thereafter, I can just put him on his bed and he will sleep till the next feed.
After a while, things got a little crazy and then we got the sarung to help rock him to sleep.
This went on for several months till I realized he was getting too heavy for the sarung and so decided to migrate him fully to my bed.
Some months ago, I decided that he needs to get out of my bed and start sleeping in his bed ... else it would have been a bloody waste of money to buy his bed!
And so we started this ritual where I would tuck him in and then sing and pat etc. till he sleeps.
Middle of the night, he would wake up and walk to my bed and wants to nurse/ have his bottled milk.
About 2 weeks back, I decided that I have to let him fall asleep on his own. And so, I tucked him in, kiss him on his face and then leave the room. For the first 2 nights or so, Ryan would protest but then he would close his eyes and sleep. In the last few days, Ryan has been proclaiming that he is not tired and don't want to sleep.
However, because I inisist on it, he would toss and turn in his bed and even went on to singing till he drops off to sleep.
Truly, this has been great for me. At least I can now tuck him in and then come out of the room and do my own work.
His few sleep-through nights are getting rare now. Hope he continues with it soon.
After a while, things got a little crazy and then we got the sarung to help rock him to sleep.
This went on for several months till I realized he was getting too heavy for the sarung and so decided to migrate him fully to my bed.
Some months ago, I decided that he needs to get out of my bed and start sleeping in his bed ... else it would have been a bloody waste of money to buy his bed!
And so we started this ritual where I would tuck him in and then sing and pat etc. till he sleeps.
Middle of the night, he would wake up and walk to my bed and wants to nurse/ have his bottled milk.
About 2 weeks back, I decided that I have to let him fall asleep on his own. And so, I tucked him in, kiss him on his face and then leave the room. For the first 2 nights or so, Ryan would protest but then he would close his eyes and sleep. In the last few days, Ryan has been proclaiming that he is not tired and don't want to sleep.
However, because I inisist on it, he would toss and turn in his bed and even went on to singing till he drops off to sleep.
Truly, this has been great for me. At least I can now tuck him in and then come out of the room and do my own work.
His few sleep-through nights are getting rare now. Hope he continues with it soon.
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
Nursery rhymes
When Ryan was a baby, there was a song which I would sing to him.
Now, I do not know the title of the song, but it goes like this ...
"Hush now baby don't say a word,
Mama's gonna buy you a mockingbird,
If that mockingbird can sing,
Mama's gonna buy you a diamond ring"
Some time back, Ryan would come to me and say "Mummy fan-cook Ryan".
For some days I was struggling with what he wanted to say till one day I sang this song, Ryan said happily "Mummy fan-cook Ryan ah" .... then I know ...
Till now I still cannot figure out which part of the song has any resemblance to the word fan-cook but he says it every time he wants this song.
Lately he has also begun t sing it and it is great to see him picking up words and rhythm. Other songs which he also sings are:
1) A-B-C-D ... all the way to NowI know my A-B-C, tell me what you think of me!
2) The above song
3) Twinkle Twinkle Little Star
4) Row Row Row Your Boat - some parts of it
5) Baa Baa Black Sheep - some parts of it
6) Gymboree songs
7) Friends forever Gymboree album which contains one the most catchy songs ever regarding making friends ... Ryan took the cue and said he wants to go make friends.
8) Elmo song
9) If you are happy .... just started with this today.
10) El Divo somes - he will just mimic away.
The beauty of all this is that Ryan is learning to sing songs without actually realizing that he is actually learning and all this comes to him much easier.
Now I am looking forward to him going to the school and learning some songs for me!
Now, I do not know the title of the song, but it goes like this ...
"Hush now baby don't say a word,
Mama's gonna buy you a mockingbird,
If that mockingbird can sing,
Mama's gonna buy you a diamond ring"
Some time back, Ryan would come to me and say "Mummy fan-cook Ryan".
For some days I was struggling with what he wanted to say till one day I sang this song, Ryan said happily "Mummy fan-cook Ryan ah" .... then I know ...
Till now I still cannot figure out which part of the song has any resemblance to the word fan-cook but he says it every time he wants this song.
Lately he has also begun t sing it and it is great to see him picking up words and rhythm. Other songs which he also sings are:
1) A-B-C-D ... all the way to NowI know my A-B-C, tell me what you think of me!
2) The above song
3) Twinkle Twinkle Little Star
4) Row Row Row Your Boat - some parts of it
5) Baa Baa Black Sheep - some parts of it
6) Gymboree songs
7) Friends forever Gymboree album which contains one the most catchy songs ever regarding making friends ... Ryan took the cue and said he wants to go make friends.
8) Elmo song
9) If you are happy .... just started with this today.
10) El Divo somes - he will just mimic away.
The beauty of all this is that Ryan is learning to sing songs without actually realizing that he is actually learning and all this comes to him much easier.
Now I am looking forward to him going to the school and learning some songs for me!
Monday, October 22, 2007
Firat post meme
I got this from Suzette some days back.
The idea is to copy my very first post on my blog and compare to see if I have changed in any way - writing that is!
My first post was on 21st June 2005 under Ryan's blog on MSN spaces.
"This morning I woke up crying at 4am ... mummy could not pacify me so daddy had to take me out of the room to pacify me.
After an hour, I was still crying, so daddy brought me back to mummy for my 'milk milk'. I lay beside mummy gulping down my 'milk milk' while mummy fell asleep.
Later, I saw mummy waking up and looking at me ... I gave her one of my 'milky smiles'. I am sure she was very happy!
Tomorrow I am going to PD, to Poh Poh's place. Mummy is going to go to Avillion for her Department Away Day. I will miss mummy while she is gone."
I had started a blog with the intention to write down all my thoughts and experience with Ryan from his point of view. It started out just fine until one day I found that I have more to say from MY point, so I created one for myself here.
Then I decided that I want to combine both - much easier to manage, so here I am.
Now, I am not sure if I have improved, but I definitely have a more challenging time now putting my thoughts in the blog with Ryan around constantly trying to get a hold of my keyboard!
Looking back at my initial posts sure brings back sweet memories of my initial days of motherhood!
The idea is to copy my very first post on my blog and compare to see if I have changed in any way - writing that is!
My first post was on 21st June 2005 under Ryan's blog on MSN spaces.
"This morning I woke up crying at 4am ... mummy could not pacify me so daddy had to take me out of the room to pacify me.
After an hour, I was still crying, so daddy brought me back to mummy for my 'milk milk'. I lay beside mummy gulping down my 'milk milk' while mummy fell asleep.
Later, I saw mummy waking up and looking at me ... I gave her one of my 'milky smiles'. I am sure she was very happy!
Tomorrow I am going to PD, to Poh Poh's place. Mummy is going to go to Avillion for her Department Away Day. I will miss mummy while she is gone."
I had started a blog with the intention to write down all my thoughts and experience with Ryan from his point of view. It started out just fine until one day I found that I have more to say from MY point, so I created one for myself here.
Then I decided that I want to combine both - much easier to manage, so here I am.
Now, I am not sure if I have improved, but I definitely have a more challenging time now putting my thoughts in the blog with Ryan around constantly trying to get a hold of my keyboard!
Looking back at my initial posts sure brings back sweet memories of my initial days of motherhood!
Amazing conversations wih Ryan
Some conversations we have which never fail to amuse and amaze me ...
Ryan: My shoulder pain pain ...
Me: Cut if off la ...
Ryan: No need, go see uncle doctor, get medicine because Ryan sick ...
Me: Ok lor ....
But actually there was nothing wrong with him, he just wanted some attention.
Me: Eat la, eat la, good good one ...
Ryan: No! I eat already! (Cantonese: Ngor sek pau cho)
Me: Eat la, eat la ...
Ryan: No! Otherwise I vomit ah!
This is when I try to get him to eat more.
Last week, at my parents' house, my dad bought Ryan a cup of ice-cream.
Me: Wah! Ryan eat so much ice-cream, stomach pain pain ah ...
Ryan: No! This one goong goong (grandpa) buy one, eat already won't pain pain one...
Me: Who say?
Ryan: I say one.
See, this one I cannot argue. It's just amazing how Ryan thinks through. If only all the people we work with thinks like a 2 year old.
My mum: Ryan, nah, eat this amachi (my mum could not prounouce properly)
Ryan: No, not amachi, omochi!!
My mum: Oh, I don't know ma. Omochi is it?
Ryan: Yes, omochi, not amachi.
My mum complained to me that a 60+ years old woman was corrected by a 2+ years old. Indeed Ryan is not shy to correct us when he believes he is right. So far, he is about 90% right in his correction. The other 10% he is clearly wrong but insist that he is still right!!
Truly amazing ...
Ryan: My shoulder pain pain ...
Me: Cut if off la ...
Ryan: No need, go see uncle doctor, get medicine because Ryan sick ...
Me: Ok lor ....
But actually there was nothing wrong with him, he just wanted some attention.
Me: Eat la, eat la, good good one ...
Ryan: No! I eat already! (Cantonese: Ngor sek pau cho)
Me: Eat la, eat la ...
Ryan: No! Otherwise I vomit ah!
This is when I try to get him to eat more.
Last week, at my parents' house, my dad bought Ryan a cup of ice-cream.
Me: Wah! Ryan eat so much ice-cream, stomach pain pain ah ...
Ryan: No! This one goong goong (grandpa) buy one, eat already won't pain pain one...
Me: Who say?
Ryan: I say one.
See, this one I cannot argue. It's just amazing how Ryan thinks through. If only all the people we work with thinks like a 2 year old.
My mum: Ryan, nah, eat this amachi (my mum could not prounouce properly)
Ryan: No, not amachi, omochi!!
My mum: Oh, I don't know ma. Omochi is it?
Ryan: Yes, omochi, not amachi.
My mum complained to me that a 60+ years old woman was corrected by a 2+ years old. Indeed Ryan is not shy to correct us when he believes he is right. So far, he is about 90% right in his correction. The other 10% he is clearly wrong but insist that he is still right!!
Truly amazing ...
Sunday, October 21, 2007
My name is ...
A friend once remarked that it must be terribly irritating for his kid to answer this questions repeatedly daily - "What is your name?"
Well, I must admit that I am guilty too. I always ask this question to Ryan.
2 nights ago on our way back from nanny's, the following conversation happened:
Me: What is your name?
Ryan: Pink!
Me: *Doink*
Well, I must admit that I am guilty too. I always ask this question to Ryan.
2 nights ago on our way back from nanny's, the following conversation happened:
Me: What is your name?
Ryan: Pink!
Me: *Doink*
Monday, October 8, 2007
Mummy, I laff you too!
For months I have been repeating this phrase "I love you" to Ryan and have been teaching him on how to respond.
Most recently, when he was away in my mum's house, we have numerous conversations which I will say "I love you" and Ryan will respond "I laff you too!" Everytime he says these words, it will melt my heart.
Tonight, there was something new ... I said "I love you" ... and he thought about it really hard and said "I laff you three!!!"
Hubby asked "Aii ... where did he learn to say that?!!"
Most recently, when he was away in my mum's house, we have numerous conversations which I will say "I love you" and Ryan will respond "I laff you too!" Everytime he says these words, it will melt my heart.
Tonight, there was something new ... I said "I love you" ... and he thought about it really hard and said "I laff you three!!!"
Hubby asked "Aii ... where did he learn to say that?!!"
Monday, October 1, 2007
Ryan is away
I must admit, I am terrible in being away from loved ones.
When I was living with my parents, I used to think about how wonderful it would be to be away from them and have my own life. Truth is, when that moment finally came, it was very difficult for me. I actually missed them! But then, I learned and adjusted well.
Then it came when my husband (then boyfriend) had to work outstation ... it was terrible! It could be a month before we meet again and it was just terrible. However, I also learned to live on my own.
Then came when I got married ... hubby left for Sudan months after we got married. Imagine my loneliness! But then I had a long hour job, so I got through.
Now, the biggest thing in my life - Ryan. When Ryan was really young, we used to leave him with nanny a night in a week when I would use the night to recuperate from my sleep deprivation. However, it is usually a rough night cause I would be missing him till I can't sleep properly. Also, I would wake up to pump milk cause I would have serious engorgement. And then in the middle of the night, I would wake up finding myself wondering why I had gotten up - the next day I find out that I woke up roughly the same time when Ryan would have woken up and cried.
As the months go by, Ryan got easier for me and so, he was never away from me. Then came the time when nanny had to go away on holiday. I would have no choice but to have Ryan sent to my mum and I would have really missed him terribly.
In the last 2 weeks in particular, I was away from Ryan when I went to Bangkok for a short holiday with friends. It was not easy, but I had a fellow mother who reminded me that I needed to be happy in order to have a happy child and so, I went. Phone calls were made 2 times a day to my mum's place and I would have a short conversation with Ryan. It really helps when he is able to make short sentences and by the 5th day, he could no longer bear missing me and was crying the whole day till the time he saw me at night.
Today, I had to send Ryan again to my mum's place cause nanny is away in Taiwan. I have been mentally preparing for this week of absence (longest separation!) for about a month and still, it has not been any easier. So, Ryan is away this week and I had chided myself to think that I was going to have a swell time by myself ... but at last, that is not true!
I came home just now with no sweat from carrying him, no raised voices to a child who purposely push my buttons, no messy floors from toys left from this morning, no messy floors from his wee wee accidents and certainly no sweet voices calling "Ah-mi ah" .... oh, I so miss him right now!
Looking forward to your return this weekend ...
When I was living with my parents, I used to think about how wonderful it would be to be away from them and have my own life. Truth is, when that moment finally came, it was very difficult for me. I actually missed them! But then, I learned and adjusted well.
Then it came when my husband (then boyfriend) had to work outstation ... it was terrible! It could be a month before we meet again and it was just terrible. However, I also learned to live on my own.
Then came when I got married ... hubby left for Sudan months after we got married. Imagine my loneliness! But then I had a long hour job, so I got through.
Now, the biggest thing in my life - Ryan. When Ryan was really young, we used to leave him with nanny a night in a week when I would use the night to recuperate from my sleep deprivation. However, it is usually a rough night cause I would be missing him till I can't sleep properly. Also, I would wake up to pump milk cause I would have serious engorgement. And then in the middle of the night, I would wake up finding myself wondering why I had gotten up - the next day I find out that I woke up roughly the same time when Ryan would have woken up and cried.
As the months go by, Ryan got easier for me and so, he was never away from me. Then came the time when nanny had to go away on holiday. I would have no choice but to have Ryan sent to my mum and I would have really missed him terribly.
In the last 2 weeks in particular, I was away from Ryan when I went to Bangkok for a short holiday with friends. It was not easy, but I had a fellow mother who reminded me that I needed to be happy in order to have a happy child and so, I went. Phone calls were made 2 times a day to my mum's place and I would have a short conversation with Ryan. It really helps when he is able to make short sentences and by the 5th day, he could no longer bear missing me and was crying the whole day till the time he saw me at night.
Today, I had to send Ryan again to my mum's place cause nanny is away in Taiwan. I have been mentally preparing for this week of absence (longest separation!) for about a month and still, it has not been any easier. So, Ryan is away this week and I had chided myself to think that I was going to have a swell time by myself ... but at last, that is not true!
I came home just now with no sweat from carrying him, no raised voices to a child who purposely push my buttons, no messy floors from toys left from this morning, no messy floors from his wee wee accidents and certainly no sweet voices calling "Ah-mi ah" .... oh, I so miss him right now!
Looking forward to your return this weekend ...
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